Upon A Stone (copyright 2003/2011)
I have knelt here for centuries,/My face as worn as the writing upon which I rest,/No longer readable at a glance,/But my eyes…
I have watched others laid about me/And fences raised to keep us apart/From the world of life that surrounds our realm;
I have seen houses appear and disappear,/The people who dwell in them change/As though the wind had carried them off,/Away from this sacred, silent place.
My misty gaze falls upon one such house,/White wooden boards form its walls,/Adorned with burgundy-red trim;
Outside its door, with its paint peeling and all,/A woman stands alone.
I remember the first time my eyes saw her,/All those years past,/She was on the arm of a handsome young gentleman,/And she met my eyes nervously,/Awaiting a future mother-in-law’s approval…
Then she was bedecked in a long white veil,/Laughing in the young man’s arms,/Never taking her eyes off his face that glowed with pride…
Then that sunny morning some months later,/Still all the same to me,/When she stood at the bright burgundy-red window/In a cotton gown, her hair hanging loosely past the sill,/Her eyes radiant, smiling weakly,/Arms clutching a newborn child,/A child not unlike the one I guard, but alive…
As more years passed, I saw her now a matriarch proud,/A flock of children always anxious to greet her/Every afternoon, coming home from school;/She would embrace each one tenderly, keeping them close to her heart,/As though she could protect them always…
But then came the day one of her fledglings fell from her nest,/Too soon to fly on its own,/Her husband went home,/Her children went home, and yet,/She stood in black, ignoring her tear-stained eyes,/Clutching a worn, well-used white handkerchief,/Alone.
Years went by still, and the woman’s long hair grew greyer,/Her face worn and tired, but still she smiled;/She stood at the door, beaming/As her chidlren would return,/They carried tiny bundles that cried,/And little toddlers that giggled, eager to see their granny,/And she embraced every one of them as she had their mothers and fathers,/Her eyes joyously meeting mine…
Then the morning her once proud, strong husband/Never rose from the bed they had shared,/His eyes still closed peacefully in his sleep,/They carried him outside to be mourned,/Uncovered, dressed in his best clothes;/The woman followed blindly,/A sea of black washed past my still face,/Waves of grief lapped at my unmoving eyes,/As they brought him into my domain of silence/To rest in the soon frozen earth…
So that old woman now stands alone in her doorway,/Her eyes misted and unseeing,/She breathes in the fresh air and the quiet that surrounds her,/Knowing my presence across the road will never disappear.
The wind whispers past my wings that will not fly,/Giving me a soft, ethereal voice,/Sunlight peeks through the clouds above me,/Enshrining me in a faint, heavenly glow,/Painting life into my cold, dead eyes,/Bringing a soul to the sentinel in the cemetery,/The angel upon a stone.
I wrote this right before heading off to my first year of undergrad. It is based off of a real tombstone and a real house, but all of the details are otherwise fictional. — Katia